Reawakening...

Today's post will be on the recent reawakening of my kinky kitty side.


AS most of you know, my Owner and I have been together for about six months,  but we have known each other for over eight years.  Now, we haven't always been Owner and Pet.  In fact I was sure I'd never be interested in being a sub again after the past experiences.  In the rebound relationship there was no kink at all.  I craved it for about four months in but then I shelved it and just decided I would stop being kinky.  He claimed to be a spanko, yet never wanted to spank me.  I took photos of myself tied up for him and he showed no interest in that either.  I was crushed but I managed to hide it and keep it secret.


When Sir and I started to date, it wasn't supposed to be serious.  It was supposed to be fun and light hearted and just us playing so I could be sexually fulfilled and intimate with someone I trusted.  But after the first weekends together we both realized and admitted it was more than that.  So we decided to seriously date and to be in an open relationship, which works well for both of us.

For the first three months we were simply together, not really any kink or such going on.  But then when I came down to visit him one weekend I brought the same ears and tail I had been wearing when he and I met.  He's always had a thing for catgirls, and I was excited to finally bring his fantasy of me as the catgirl he met me as, to life.  I put on my corset, stockings, ears and tail and the look on his face was so, so satisfying.  I was able to be the kitten inside again, for the first time in over 6 years.  It was a natural homecoming.

This being said, my owner and I occasionally switch and I dom him.  He's the first male I have actually dommed and I find that the kitten in me finds it more of a play thing than an actual control thing. I get to play with him like a cat with a mouse.  I get to tie him up and pull his hair and scratch, bite and just let my feral instincts take over.  We've decided this is when I'm more of a snow leopard than a kitten.  I enjoy occasionally allowing this side out because it's a fun way to change up the level and intensity of certain scenes and emotions.

After the first weekend of me as a kitty Sir and I realized that I needed kink back in my life.  We have spent the past three months deciding exactly how to get that into my life.  In the last month or so I have been needing and craving more of the D/s dynamic and I made it known to him.  In the last two weeks we have involved more D/s into the daily fabric of our lives and I have to say I am greatly enjoying it.  Being back in my " element" so to speak as both submissive and kitten.  Last week we had a real breakthrough though.

It came as we were laying in bed playing Borderlands and after we turned it off for the night I confided in him that I wanted D/s to be a bigger part of our life and relationship.  I broke down and cried and he held me and we talked it out.  Then he told me to be aware that he was asking me to call him sir for the rest of the night. I had been calling him sir in the bedroom for a month at this point, but being so out of practice I messed up many times and ended up with 46 spankings owed to me.


In the end that night changed what lay between us and I am so very glad about it.  He is not as used to lifestyle D/s as a way of life, now of it as a daily part of life yet.  All his subs int he past have been in the bedroom,  but helping him grow and learn is a task I am very excited about helping him learn to be the best owner and Sir he can be.  A few people have said that in essence i am topping from the bottom and training his to dom me.  I don't see it that way.  I see it as he and I embarking on the journey to being the happiest together we can be.  To allow him to enjoy my submissiveness as much as possible and to allow me to revel in being who I am.

He is enjoying having me to serve him,  I think he is struggling a bit with the fact that it makes me happy and is good for my happiness and sense of fulfillment.  He's not used to a girl who craves it the way I do, outside of the bedroom and in daily life.  But he's growing more at ease.  His main fear is that he'll be like my ex Master,  which due to the way he reasons and his depth of emotion I do not see that happening.  But the fear is there.  I do see it wearing off slowly as he sees how happy it's making me and he realizes how much he is starting to like it.

I think most new doms feel the same way, but I think like them he will be able to move past that and be able to fully embrace that side of himself.  I cannot wait to see what he'll become.  And I cannot wait to see how my kitten side will grow with him!